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Sunday, June 12, 2005
2:42 AM

I love "Dancing in the moonlight"! U knw that song by Toploader? It makes me tingle with happiness all over. And it never fails to conjur up in me the scene at a some courtyard dance when the guy asks the girl for a dance and she smiles that sweet smile, with eyes gleaming with delight, and nods. Awww.. SO SWEET!

Ok, enough! As much as I wld love that to happen to me some day, I knw it wldn't, cos for starters, ppl in Singapore hardly practice the act of holding dances, or even functions for that matter, in courtyards. Plus, proper, full fledged courtyards are scarcely available on our lands! Oh! And and and. Which handsome, dark haired, sweet, faithful, caucasian looking fella wld ever wanna ask me for a dance?! I knw I ask for too much la.. But the possibility of anything even resembling the courtyard scene occurring to me is like 1 to 654561687321!

I knw I've still got a long way to go, a long life to live, and more than enough chances to fall in and out of love, again and again, until Mr Right comes my way. But for now, when I let my imagination wander off as I do, it feels as though I'm condemned to b an old spinster for the next half of my life. I'd watch my brother get married, carry his little daughters and sons. B my bestie's brides' maid at her wedding, and not catch her falling bouquet. Attend many ceremonies of my close friends and relatives, yet end up old and alone for the rest of my days. CHRIST! THAT SOUNDS SCARY!

But these're just thoughts, visionaries I like to fill my mind with when I'm utterly bored. Right now, in reality, I feel fine without that someone [not referring]! Infact, I'd rather b off all that head-over-heels, quarrelling, making up [and out], fighting, screaming, cursing, heart breaking fits. So so tiring! And no, I'm not trying to make myself feel better becos I'm alone. I like being this way, emancipated from all that jazz. =)

However, for those who're lovingly attached, I'm sure u see all the good that there is in having a relationship and are happy. Becos yea, it's awesome to have someone there whenever u need a shoulder, a listening ear, sentimental comfort, all of that jazz. I agree.

And for those who're new members to singlehood, or are in singlehood but don't appreciate it much at the moment. Remember that we've our pros as well, so make the most of what u have. =)

Ok, I knw, this entry's full of waste. Good night, world.

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